Wednesday, April 26, 2017

nothing much

my friend and i had a conversation about being grateful.
actually we talked about so many things, but we do not discuss people.

" sometimes, simply by sitting, the soul collects wisdom "

there are so so many things to be grateful for. like seriously a lot. and i don't have time to complaint. i don't even should have complaint i guess, but being human i have flaws. and i am very much looking forward to better.

happiness starts with you yourself. never some materials or even someone else. you cannot truly be happy if the source of your happiness is not within you. money can buy you mountains and islands, but not the serenity.


Tuesday, April 11, 2017

beauty & the beast

yee orang lain dah lama tengok but aku baru laa hegeh tengok semalam.
thank you people for joining last night. kadang rindu masa lepak keluar ngn kawan kawan 😘

nak kata aku minat sangat cite beauty and the beast ni tidak laa. sebab dah tau cite die cliche sangat kan. tapi mmg tahun ni aku ada list cite yang aku nak tengok. termasuk laa cite nih. maka kebetulan ada masa terluang, maka boleh lah tengok. 

basically i love watak Belle. bijak, berani, cantik dan baik. all qualities that a girl should carry. and rasa nya Emma Watson tu mmg paling sesuai dah jadi Belle. hahah cantik nau 💃🏻 the beast plak memula peel kekwat sangat kan 🐻 dah kene sumpah jadi beast baru laa padan muka. insaf. 

malas laa cite pasal kesah cinta dorang kan sbb semua dah tau. cuma terfikir pasal issue gay yang di bising bising kan before tayangan. actually macam tak tau pn gay nye kt mana. 

lagu lagu cite ni best. editing lawa gilee. ada benda comel. cam teapot tu ngn anak dia chip ☕️ comel masa jadi cawan. dah jadi orang balik semua pn aku rasa pening sbb nengok kan rambut n make up dorang 😵 but tak per laa may be time tu fashion gtu tengah in kot. 

so kalo korang bosan bosan boleh laa g tengok cite ni. x laa mengecewa kan pon 👍🏻 tapi jangan g time ngantok. mesti korang tido sbb banyak lagu. enjoy !


Sunday, April 9, 2017

setahun merindu

it has been a while. 
i had difficulties in writing. even if i have a lot to say.

but now i am in control of my life ( a bit ) 
trying to put in some activities between the days. manage to slot in for family time. 

now it is April again. and semua perasaan pahit tu kembali. it just hit me like a storm. this moment, one year ago, i lost the man that i love the most. my world became so dark. my heart sank to the lowest ground. and yes it hurts. still. i miss him too dearly. and no one can understand that. Sofea feels that way too. she lost the best grandfather at only 3yo. the void that can never be filled. 

alfatihah buat ayahanda tercinta. kita jumpa di syurga. amin

there is so much that i wanted to tell you. there is so many things i had in my life. you know you are the only person that i always ran to whenever i have something. be it problems or happy things. you are the one that i wanted to tell first. 

the love from your voice is can never be replaced. it is so soothing to my ears. it calms me in so many ways. it makes me warm, even until now. but what hurts the most is i can only live in the memories we shared. we cannot create a new one.

because you are no longer here. because our time is now different. because our world  now  is different. if only i can hold you tight once again 😭 i miss you & i love you always. 

thank you for everything you made. thank you for all the love you showered us. thank you for being the best dad i can ever asked for. thank you for showing me that real gentleman do exists ! i am so proud of you. 


Saturday, December 31, 2016

Reflecting 2016

as I sat down thinking of the year ahead, it is wise to take some time reflecting my 2016, I think. it is indeed a very tough year for me. or maybe for all of us. however, it wasn't entirely sad, I still have some fun too. I traveled and visited a few countries. 


my late father was diagnosed with amyloidosis back in September 2014. we quickly made our research about the disease. yes, every article told us that there is no cure for amyloid. but you know, I always trust in the power of du'a. i kept telling myself that he will overcome this time. he solved most of my problems! definitely, he can think of something about his condition. 

ever since I know about his disease, I always try to keep him close to me. I took his pictures. a lot. and from all the photos taken, I can see that his condition deteriorated. I am super sad  told myself to be ready. if ever anything bad happens to him, I must be ready. and I think I can handle this. the lie that I told myself, until the day he breathed his last one 💔

but when I look back, I know he fought well. he was in pain. he kept telling me that he would die because of that disease. sad ! I miss you abah. However, i was a bit relieved when I know he is in a better place now. In shaa Allah


@molecuscoffee  ☕️ is the baby business of my brother and I. it is just not a coffee shop. it carries our soul. the sacrifices behind the cafe are beyond expectations. after his graduation, he went back to London for this coffee certificate in London School of Coffee. he was all alone. leaving behind his pregnant wife and his beloved father. 

staying in York made he traveled by bus on regular basis. but it wasn't the same routine on the April 9. he just reached home when I called him, telling him that abah won't make it. it was probably the hardest thing for a sister to tell. 

he came home 24hours after. but only to see his grave. never had the chance to say sorry. to say he loves him. never get the chance to bathe the man he loves the most. nothing ! I know there is no greater pain than this.  

If only abah is still here, he must be the happiest person sitting at our cafe today 😊 that is why our cafe carries our heart too. 


Yes, as I mentioned earlier my 2016 wasn't all about sadness and sorrow. I do have happy moments too. I love to travel. I get to learn the culture, the weather, the people, and the food. Witnessing the beauty of God's creation, Masya Allah it's a blessing ! ❤️ Singapore, London, Rome, Istanbul, Indonesia and Thailand are the countries visited this year. Johor, Penang, Melaka, and Kelantan are the states that have special place in my heart. They are unique on their own. I really love the diversity of Malaysia.

thank you for the many great things in 2016 ☺️


Friday, December 16, 2016

go travel

Travel is expensive (at least for me it is expensive). It requires a certain portion of your earnings in order for you to travel. But don't be stingy towards yourself.

Once a wise man told me, go travel. you'll have the experience that money can't buy. Of course, you cannot have that valuable knowledge for free.  So spend wisely!

Ever since he told me that, I plan for my own travel wish list. There is a certain place that I really want to go. For an instance, I have been looking to visit Alexandria in Egypt. This city has such an extraordinary history. Exciting one!

However, the visit to Alexandria remains a wish list until now. -Sad but I'll work on that some other day.

I hope ❌⭕️❌⭕️

Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has courage to lose sight of the shore - Andre Gide

Photos were taken in Rome earlier this year.

the building, the weather, the music, and the smell of the hot coffee. i still have them in my mind.
as a traveler or a tourist, i always love to walk around the alleys and the streets. just to experience the locals. they are all beautiful people.

| Notes to Travel |

  • choose a country or a place that you have never visited.
  • do some research why you want to visit the place
  • list out what do you wish to see / visit/learn from the trip
  • enjoy your trip. don't rush.
  • never forget your camera 📸
  • do not go for fancy hotels, you just want to sleep
  • consider to go with a bunch of crazy friends - sharing expenses is the best way not to make you go broke 🤗