Saturday, December 31, 2016

Reflecting 2016

as I sat down thinking of the year ahead, it is wise to take some time reflecting my 2016, I think. it is indeed a very tough year for me. or maybe for all of us. however, it wasn't entirely sad, I still have some fun too. I traveled and visited a few countries. 


my late father was diagnosed with amyloidosis back in September 2014. we quickly made our research about the disease. yes, every article told us that there is no cure for amyloid. but you know, I always trust in the power of du'a. i kept telling myself that he will overcome this time. he solved most of my problems! definitely, he can think of something about his condition. 

ever since I know about his disease, I always try to keep him close to me. I took his pictures. a lot. and from all the photos taken, I can see that his condition deteriorated. I am super sad  told myself to be ready. if ever anything bad happens to him, I must be ready. and I think I can handle this. the lie that I told myself, until the day he breathed his last one 💔

but when I look back, I know he fought well. he was in pain. he kept telling me that he would die because of that disease. sad ! I miss you abah. However, i was a bit relieved when I know he is in a better place now. In shaa Allah


@molecuscoffee  ☕️ is the baby business of my brother and I. it is just not a coffee shop. it carries our soul. the sacrifices behind the cafe are beyond expectations. after his graduation, he went back to London for this coffee certificate in London School of Coffee. he was all alone. leaving behind his pregnant wife and his beloved father. 

staying in York made he traveled by bus on regular basis. but it wasn't the same routine on the April 9. he just reached home when I called him, telling him that abah won't make it. it was probably the hardest thing for a sister to tell. 

he came home 24hours after. but only to see his grave. never had the chance to say sorry. to say he loves him. never get the chance to bathe the man he loves the most. nothing ! I know there is no greater pain than this.  

If only abah is still here, he must be the happiest person sitting at our cafe today 😊 that is why our cafe carries our heart too. 


Yes, as I mentioned earlier my 2016 wasn't all about sadness and sorrow. I do have happy moments too. I love to travel. I get to learn the culture, the weather, the people, and the food. Witnessing the beauty of God's creation, Masya Allah it's a blessing ! ❤️ Singapore, London, Rome, Istanbul, Indonesia and Thailand are the countries visited this year. Johor, Penang, Melaka, and Kelantan are the states that have special place in my heart. They are unique on their own. I really love the diversity of Malaysia.

thank you for the many great things in 2016 ☺️

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