Wednesday, April 26, 2017

nothing much

my friend and i had a conversation about being grateful.
actually we talked about so many things, but we do not discuss people.

" sometimes, simply by sitting, the soul collects wisdom "

there are so so many things to be grateful for. like seriously a lot. and i don't have time to complaint. i don't even should have complaint i guess, but being human i have flaws. and i am very much looking forward to be better.

happiness starts with you yourself.  you cannot truly be happy if the source of your happiness is not within you. money can buy you mountains and islands, but not the serenity.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

beauty & the beast

yee orang lain dah lama tengok but aku baru laa hegeh tengok semalam.
thank you people for joining last night. kadang rindu masa lepak keluar ngn kawan kawan 😘

nak kata aku minat sangat cite beauty and the beast ni tidak laa. sebab dah tau cite die cliche sangat kan. tapi mmg tahun ni aku ada list cite yang aku nak tengok. termasuk laa cite nih. maka kebetulan ada masa terluang, maka boleh lah tengok. 

basically i love watak Belle. bijak, berani, cantik dan baik. all qualities that a girl should carry. and rasa nya Emma Watson tu mmg paling sesuai dah jadi Belle. hahah cantik nau 💃🏻 the beast plak memula peel kekwat sangat kan 🐻 dah kene sumpah jadi beast baru laa padan muka. insaf. 

malas laa cite pasal kesah cinta dorang kan sbb semua dah tau. cuma terfikir pasal issue gay yang di bising bising kan before tayangan. actually macam tak tau pn gay nye kt mana. 

lagu lagu cite ni best. editing lawa gilee. ada benda comel. cam teapot tu ngn anak dia chip ☕️ comel masa jadi cawan. dah jadi orang balik semua pn aku rasa pening sbb nengok kan rambut n make up dorang 😵 but tak per laa may be time tu fashion gtu tengah in kot. 

so kalo korang bosan bosan boleh laa g tengok cite ni. x laa mengecewa kan pon 👍🏻 tapi jangan g time ngantok. mesti korang tido sbb banyak lagu. enjoy !

Sunday, April 9, 2017

setahun merindu

it has been a while. 
i had difficulties in writing. even if i have a lot to say.

but now i am in control of my life ( a bit ) 
trying to put in some activities between the days. manage to slot in for family time. 

now it is April again. and semua perasaan pahit tu kembali. it just hit me like a storm. this moment, one year ago, i lost the man that i love the most. my world became so dark. my heart sank to the lowest ground. and yes it hurts. still. i miss him too dearly. and no one can understand that. Sofea feels that way too. she lost the best grandfather at only 3yo. the void that can never be filled. 

alfatihah buat ayahanda tercinta. kita jumpa di syurga. amin

there is so much that i wanted to tell you. there is so many things i had in my life. you know you are the only person that i always ran to whenever i have something. be it problems or happy things. you are the one that i wanted to tell first. 

the love from your voice is can never be replaced. it is so soothing to my ears. it calms me in so many ways. it makes me warm, even until now. but what hurts the most is i can only live in the memories we shared. we cannot create a new one.

because you are no longer here. because our time is now different. because our world  now  is different. if only i can hold you tight once again 😭 i miss you & i love you always. 

thank you for everything you made. thank you for all the love you showered us. thank you for being the best dad i can ever asked for. thank you for showing me that real gentleman do exists ! i am so proud of you.